caustic_miracle

been awhilee

2005-10-20T02:34:39Z

man its been like 8 days, i knew i would eventually forget this thing sometimes.

so i really dont remember much of the last 8 days, just what i did, not on which day though. Saturday, i went to tylers and slept over there, that was fun, minus the me not sleeping thing which i dont want to talk about on here. Sunday i went to ikea, where you can get uncrustables for fifty cents, kick ass. I went with mel to get her a new room, then that night be put her new bed together. The next day i went over while she was at work, and did more stuff, then finally we finished everything tuesday, im glad we finished cause it makes melanie happy, and thats what i do. uh, today i went golfing with duke than we chilled with sammy and shit. thats about it, tomorrow me and melanie are watching smallville. YESSSSS. i love smallville, but i love melanie more.

we're going on another date this weekend, im excited. and also tomorrow im excited for something i cannot say on here. melanie would not like that. YO

i love you melanie crowe

caustic_miracle @ 2005-10-11T15:18:00

2005-10-11T19:20:59Z

so, my brother got married. thats about it.

friday i slept at his house and got smashed with my cousins and my brother.
saturday melanie came over than we went to the whole wedding thing, it was fun, im glad mel didnt feel too sick. then on sunday, i chilled all day and went over mels at night, the usual, her family probably tried to forcefeed me i dont remember. Last night i went over there and had FLILET MIGON. so good. then some kick ass cake that i took home with me, and its almost gone. i have work today and i dont want to go, i donts ee the point i only will be working there another 2 weeks anyway.

You move slow like daytime drama

2005-10-07T14:36:22Z

my brother is getting married tomorrow. thats awesome.
alright so yesterday, i went to school. Melanie was sick so she went home at like 12:30. Lucky Dawg. I unfortunatley had to stay the whole day. PSH WHATEVA.
After school, daddy picked me up and we went straight to the mall to get our tuxedos for my brother's wedding tomorrow. tomorrow. yes, tomorrow. Oh yeah, im sexy in my tux.
After that we came home at i talked to melanie and stuff and waited around until like 4 and melanie had to go to work and I had to go to the rehersal dinner. So that was like an hour and a half drive, fucking sucked. I slept most of the way anyway. So we rehersed and stuff, im the best man, so im important. Then we went to dinner with everyone at luigi's. It was pretty damn good, but they kept firing appetizers like crazy. I talked alot to my cousin's chris and johnny, they have some hillarious stories. Dinner was over, i came home. Uh, couldnt sleep once me and mel got of the phone, so i played warcarft. Finally went to sleep, woke up, played warcarft again, and now im here.

yo, my brother is getting married tomorrow. peace.

I'm the first kid, to write of hearts lies and friends.

2005-10-06T01:37:40Z

^^dont mind the subject, its just the song i was listening to.

alright, so yesterday. i had shitty school, and then work. yesterday sucked. except when i got home from work i had a myspace message from melly <33333 i love her to death.

TODAY:
school. suXXors. Got home, dont get to hang out with melanie because she had work, BLURGH. So i just sat around all day, played warcarft, im getting back into that. At like 7 my brother and i went golfing, hit some balls. I can hit like a steady 200yards. i think thats good. My brothers house is nice, its bigger than you would think for a condo. Nice High DEF TV, nice crib. Comfortable Sofa. GoodShit. Came home at like 9:15. and im just fucking chilling!

yo, my brother is getting married in 3 days, im the best man.

My girlfriend, is better than yours.

October 3rd

2005-10-04T03:06:56Z

Yo, whuddup?
Today was an okay day until after school. School was usual, gay, i dunno i just really dont like it. After school mel boo and i had to wait like 45 minutes for her g-mom to come get us from school and take us to her house. We finally got to her house at like 3:30. Had some naptime, and fun, and ate some general store. Then we basically slept all day until like 7:00pm. Then we went to the mall and stuff so melly could get shoes for the wedding, and new makeup, and other accessories. We got home from that at like 9:15? or something. MY dad gets mad over the stupidest shit, i ask if i can come home at 10 and he gets all mad? whatever he's gay. He just HAPPENED to show up across the street from mels house to "look at a boat" there. RIGHT. Well anyway, me and mel watched some fucking WWE wrestling, that shit never gets old its awesome. So then her dad brought me home at like 9:45? or something, i didnt want to go :( I hate leaving my girlfriend. I love her so much.

My brother gets married in 5 days, fucking sweet, who isnt getting smashed?!!?!

caustic_miracle @ 2005-10-02T22:08:00

2005-10-03T02:21:57Z

Hello.
I decided that i am going to give this thing a new look, got milk mutha fuckas? Yeah that and start updating again. SO, this one will be all about my amazing girlfriend.
Her name is Melanie Anne Crowe. She lives in Ewan, NJ. Don't ask where its at im not even sure if it an official town. lol. Shes in my grade, i'm a junior. Shes the most amazing girlfriend i could ever ask for, anyone could ask for actually, if you dont agree with me go fuck yourself :)
She has the prettiest blue eyes ever, check this shit out.

See what i mean? be jealous.

Anyway. she has really cute feet too, the only feet i actually like kissing, and yes i randomly kiss them. Other than that shes really nice and sweet and cute and she talks in this voice sometimes that makes me smile, and then i smile and she smiles and its like a utopia of smiles.

I love melanie so fucking much.
We're growing up and getting married and adopting one kid and having one of our own. We're gonna have a sexy baby too.

Onto my weekend.
Friday I uh, I went to the mall with mommy and billy and got "spoiled" so to speak. Saturday, i couldnt find melly belly when i first woke up so i got sad and then i found her and she told me to come over so i did work on that. I went to get a haircut and than i got mcdonalds and bought melanie chicken nuggets and honey. The stupid people at mcdonalds didnt know what honey was, d-bags. Then i went to mels and we went shopping with her mommy and the store was on fire due to mel's horrible luck. So we couldnt go into joyce leslie. And she didnt find a gold shaw. Gay.
Then we went back to mels and went to my house and went to dukes. It was fun. Well at first it was boring because i didnt uh, have any special juice, but then deseree went and got me and melanie special juice and it was awesome. The whole night is a little blurry, but i just know i was GONE. and i have a hairy ass. My girlfriend made out with 4 girls. It was cool.
Uh i cant think of anything else. I got dunkin donuts today with mel. Then she left and it was sad cause i didnt want her to go but she had work and so did i. So i went to work and came home and night time stuff and im here.
...
im done.
Peace.

caustic_miracle @ 2005-01-23T23:03:00

2005-01-24T04:03:47Z

1. Who are you?
2. Are we friends?
3. When and how did we meet?
4. How have I affected you?
5. What do you think of me?
6. What's the fondest memory you have of me?
7. How long do you think we will be friends?
8. Do you love me?
9. Have I ever hurt you?
10. Would you kiss me?
11. Would you hug me?
12. Are we close?
13. Emotionally, what stands out?
14. Do you wish I was cooler?
15. On a scale of 1-10, how nice am I?
16. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.
17. Am I loveable?
18. How long have you known me?
19. Describe me in one word.
20. What was your first impression?
21. Do you still think that way about me now?
22. What do you think my weakness is?
23. Do you think I'll get married?
24. What makes me happy?
25. What makes me sad?
26. What reminds you of me?
27. Whats something you would change about me?
29. How well do you know me?
30. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
31. Do you think I could kill someone?
32. Are you going to put this on your LiveJournal and see what I say about you?
33. Whats something you love about me?

caustic_miracle @ 2004-11-24T14:06:00

2004-11-24T19:06:27Z

there goes another one off the drawing bored.

caustic_miracle @ 2004-11-22T22:18:00

2004-11-23T03:19:22Z

okay lets see, woke up, did the school thing. After school i had chessclub, don't hate. Tomorrow we have a chess match at triton highschool. yeah we have away games...i wont be home until late then i have work after, good luck trying to talk to me tomorrow.

peaceful homie.

d2-d4

caustic_miracle @ 2004-11-21T22:54:00

2004-11-22T03:56:00Z

im starting this thing again. I was going to delete all the old entries but i figured, if you look back at the beginning until now you can tell how much i've matured. You can also see what i've been through. So uh, homecoming was yesterday, went with nichole, the actual dance was alright but hoffmans was better. If everything went my way i would've ended up naked on a beach in hawaii with jenna jameson(yeah i matured, lol). BUT, it just had to take a totally different road. Yeah i crashed there with about 8 or so other guys, i slept in the same bed as wubble, he gives awsome back massages, no its not gay. seriously your missing out. it feels good until you remember its river behind you giggling. lol.
peaceful.

caustic_miracle @ 2004-10-14T21:41:00

2004-10-15T01:51:34Z

ALRIGHT! this might possibly be my longest update ever....so here it goes.

i don't think i can trust anyone.
you said we had something good, something you didnt want to lose...you lost it.
what were you thinking when you called him?
were you thinking oh nicks at work i cant get caught?
were you thinking that i just want someone to go to timberline with me?
or were you thinking this is the last chance?
were you thinking crazy?
what the fuck were you thinking?
you cheated on me
not once...6 times all on one hour.
then you even had the nerve to lie to me about it, kiss me, tell me you love me
that carried on for a couple days.
then when i finally found out you STILL lie to me
you dont even tell your friends what you did because you know you were wrong.
you fed me false truths and fucked-up lies for 3 weeks....you thought you were slick didnt you?
figured you could still talk to him without me knowing? im not as dumb as you think i had a hunch
you moved up a step on my whore list.
how could you?
why?
after everything i did for you. i was there for you when you needed it
you cried on my shoulder that night and from then on i knew what was going to happen in the next month.
i got used to all the shit i put up with
i got used to you
your kiss
the way you think
i can read you like a book
bestfriends always made greatest lovers....

and with that...

you just ruined every chance of ever talking to me without hating you,ever.again.

caustic_miracle @ 2004-10-12T19:06:00

2004-10-13T02:06:42Z

the best thing we ever had in our relationship was my dick and your mouth

caustic_miracle @ 2004-10-12T18:45:00

2004-10-13T01:45:23Z

i hate you.

Kristyn was here.

2004-09-28T03:17:01Z

Worrrrd yet it's Nichole. Nick is allowing me to update his journal. I used to do it before. Did I ? Yeah I did. Hmmm.. so what's new with Nick ? Let's see.. he dyed his hair dark brown and it's pretty. He's with me, how neat <3 ..hm, I guess if you'd want to know what else you should ask him. Kristyn, Ryan, Nick, and Me are all hanging out soon, when is a good question.. hm. We're having some sort of fest.

My ears infected. Effing earrings. Worrd.

Nick came over tonight and we watched the most difficultest movie ever.. Enternal sunshine for spotless mind I suppose.. and wooo I didn't get it. He did though. And Nick's all into the 80's in a day. I stole his cd because it has my song on it, but i'm giving it back so I guess I didn't really steal it. Yeah.. well i'm gonna go to sleepers.. peacefulness peoples.

caustic_miracle @ 2004-08-29T07:15:00

2004-08-29T11:15:53Z

how to pass time.
listen to this song 10 times.

I can't imagine all the people that you know
And the places that you go
When the lights are turned down low
And I don't understand
All the things you've seen
But I'm slipping in between
You and your big... dreams
it's always you and my big dreams

And you tell me
That it's over
But i can't stand here in a patch of four leaf clover
And your restless
And I'm naked
You've got to get out
You can't stand to see me shaking
no, áould you let me go

and you don't want to be here in the future
So you say
the present's just a pleasant
Interruption to the past
And you don't want to look much closer
'Cause you're afraid to find out all the hope
That you had sent into the sky by now had... crashed
and it did because of me

And then you bring me home
Afraid to find out that you're alone, no
And I'm sleeping in your living room
But we don't have much room
To live

And I had dreams that i would learn to play guitar
Maybe cross the country
Become a rockstar
And there was hope in me
That I could take you there
But dammit you're so young
But I don't think I care
and if I hurt you then i'm sorry
It's just this guilt has got the best of me

And then you bring me home
'Cause we both know what its like to be alone, no
And I'm dreaming in your living room
But we don't have much room
To live

Konstantine came walking down the stairs
Doesn't she look good
Standing in her underwear?
And i've been thinking, and i've thinking, no
But she's been drinking
And it doesn't get me anywhere

My Konstantine came walking down the stairs
And all that I could do
Was touch her long blond hair
And i was thinking, what i was thining ya know
we've been drinking and it doesn't get me anywhere

This is because I can spell konfusion with a K
It's hard to like it
It's to dying in anothers arms
and why i had to try it
It's to jimmy eat world
and those nights in my car
But this time i'm alone, and i don't see those stars
I'm not your star?
Isn't that what you said
what you thought this song meant
you thought this song meant

And if this is what it takes
just to lie in my mistakes
and live with what I did to you
And all the things i put you through
I always catch the clock it's 11:11
And now you want to talk
it's not hard to dream
You'll always be my Konstantine

They'll never hurt you like I do
No, They'll never hurt you like I do
No, No, No, No, No, No, No, No, No

This is to a girl who got into my head
with all these pretty things she did
Hey Baby, You know that you keep me up in bed
It's to a girl who got into my head
with all the fucked up things I did
Hey Maybe Baby, You could keep me up in bed
My Konstantine

Spin Around me like a Dream
We played out on this movie screen
And i said, did you know I missed you
Did you know I missed you
Did you know I missed you
Did you know I missed you
Did You know i miss you
Did you know i miss you
Did you know i miss you

God, I miss you

And then you bring me home
And we'll go to sleep but this time not alone, no no,
And you'll kiss me in your living room, oh
And you see, no, that i've been missing in my Living room
Cause this is what i miss, what i miss
We don't have much room
I said, does anyboy need that room?
Because we all need a little more room
To live

My Konstantine

caustic_miracle @ 2004-08-28T12:51:00

2004-08-28T16:51:47Z

everytime i let go its like i cant, its like falling from a tree and getting hit in the balls on the way down and stopping.

caustic_miracle @ 2004-08-26T00:24:00

2004-08-26T04:24:23Z

have fun kids

I cried:
I asked you to help:
I was becoming suicidal:
I killed myself:
I died from natural causes:
I said I liked you:
I kissed you:
I started smoking:
I stole something:
I was hospitalized:
I ran away from home:
I got in a fight and you were there:
I said I loved you:
I wrote a song for you:
I called you something mean:
I got in an arguement with your best friend:
I stole something and you were there:
I broke a nail:
I asked you to marry me:
I beat up your mom:

like i don't care at all

2004-08-21T15:13:55Z

it kills me to know that im probably wasting my time...but i have probably said that ...5-6 times in the past month or so. everytime i say im gonna forget it, i don't, because then we'll start talking again. ill be there.

you know you do you kill me well.

caustic_miracle @ 2004-08-18T23:28:00

2004-08-19T03:28:37Z

amber and ashely's party...
fun.
hurt my neck.

peace

it's worth it

2004-08-18T02:26:45Z

yeah....i guess i will update again.

brittney and malena came over....that name is awsome.

we just sat around, we went to billys but we left cause mal didnt like billy...then here we jsut watched halloween h20...then tv...then they left...

even though nothing really happened tonight i guess it was still worth the update.

caustic_miracle @ 2004-08-03T13:04:00

2004-08-03T17:04:55Z

im not updating anymore.

caustic_miracle @ 2004-08-01T23:37:00

2004-08-02T03:37:30Z

coles party.....

caustic_miracle @ 2004-07-31T00:41:00

2004-07-31T04:41:29Z

i fucking hate you for holding me back

shut up and do it

2004-07-30T15:56:25Z

COPY AND PASTE INTO A COMMENT AND TAKE IT FOR ME.

****OPINIONS*****
1. Am I cute?:
2. Am I hot?:
3. Am I sweet?:
4. Am I crazy?:
5. Am I loveable?:
6. Am I funny?:
7. Am I annoying?:
8. Am I psycho?:
9. Am I daring?:
10. Am I a good person?:
11. Am I sexy?:

*****WOULD YOU...*****
11. Hug me?:
12. Miss me if I was gone?:
13. Listen to my problems?:
14. Hug me if i cried?:
15. Be a good friend?:

*****WOULD YOU...*****
16. Ever go out with me?:
17. If you already have would you do it again?:
18. Kiss me?:
19. Have rough sex with me?
20. Marry me if you could?:

*****HOW WELL DO YOU KNOW ME?*****
21. When's my birthday?:
22. How tall am I?:
23. What school do I go to?:
24. Do i have any siblings ~> names?? :
25. Who is my most current ex?:
26. Who is my best friend?:
27. Who am i crushing on/dating?:
28. Favorite animal?:
29. Favorite food?:
30. Favorite TV show?:
31. Favorite song/songs?:
32. Favorite music group?:

*****IF YOU COULD*****
36. Give me a new name, what would it be and why?:
37. Hook me up with someone (real), who would it be and why?:
38. Do one thing with me what would it be and why?:
39. Drop me one piece of advice, what would it be?:

*****JUST A FEW QUESTIONS*****
40.What do you love about me?:
41. What do you hate about me?(seriously):
42. What is my best quality?:
43. If you could change one thing about me what would it be?:
44. What is your honest opinion about me?

caustic_miracle @ 2004-07-30T11:51:00

2004-07-30T15:51:37Z

back from the shore....it was alright...hung out with some cool people for like 20 minutes...bye

maybe this week wont be so bad afterall